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	2006.04.24  09.04 weekend fun, sun, no gun this weekend was alright i went biking because i have my bike down here. it was fun. good to be out doors. The Chipotle margarita is actually pretty tasty, and for only 3.50 i have to say the best one i'll ever get in a plastic cup. Went to go blow glass, not much after that, my stupid DVR keeps missing Family Guy, and thats really pissing me off. -Andrew Mood: okay Music: cake - comfort eagle

	2006.04.18  09.23 Don't trust the fuck heads Well i think this is best summed up with a conversation i had with chonny yestday: (15:20:25) Moashi: i took a free lance thing for this guy. doing maya modeling (15:20:34) Moashi: turns out he was getting people to do his homework (15:20:49) Moashi: it was not for $ but for future business (15:20:56) paranoidAndrd 0: oh shit (15:21:00) Moashi: i found out it was for homework as i got susspicious (15:21:23) paranoidAndrd 0: how did he present it to you initially? (15:21:33) Moashi: i was going to screw him, but it seems now he was legit in pimping me out (15:21:50) paranoidAndrd 0: legit? (15:22:24) Moashi: legitimate (15:22:40) Moashi: he said he needed some modeling done it was a scene of a kitchen (15:23:14) Moashi: i was going to do it when i found out that the file he sent me looked like it had been done by somebody with a very limited knowledge of anything 3d (15:23:31) paranoidAndrd 0: heh (15:23:32) Moashi: over smoothing, stretching spheres etc... (15:23:46) paranoidAndrd 0: so is he trying to get a degree or something with this? (15:23:46) Moashi: he owns a design company (15:23:56) Moashi: i looked it up and everything (15:24:00) paranoidAndrd 0: okay (15:24:05) Moashi: i think he's trying to get certification (15:24:40) Moashi: anyhow, i kept asking him what it was going to be used for (15:24:47) Moashi: crap he just called my cell phone (15:25:04) Moashi: he finally told me it was for a final project for a personal class (15:25:22) paranoidAndrd 0: ick (15:25:43) Moashi: so i was going to screw him over... water marks, binding transparent images to the camera with my contact info on it Anyhow i confronted him on exactly what he was doing and sent him the watermarked files. he then writes me back and makes it sound like i just blew the best thing that could have ever happend to me. telling me that i was dishonest and blah blah blah blah. I got so angry i wanted to go tell him off and show him a real portfolio because he started going off about how i was shady and did not send him slides of my work but wanted to be paid high wages and blah blah blah. The thing is i was doing this for free to get my foot in the door... i think i will just let it slide as the Misses has suggested. He originally only wanted me to build a cabinet, and then wanted a whole entire kitchen. I'm just pretty pissed and thought i would tell somebody. -Andrew Mood: pissed off Music: eh

	2006.04.06  13.19 self worth < normal so, been feeling like i havent been amounting to much, i want to start getting my artwork out on the streets, but it seems like an impossilbe task. i think this weekend i'm going to be spending a lot of time in the stuido while lexie is gone... hopefully it will all work out okay. Then on sunday i will also try and sell my work to whoever i can. thats about it, dont feel like i'll have anything worth while by the time siggraph rolls around.... eh Mood: disappointed Music: the hockey song

	2006.02.10  22.45 Dear Amherst: I miss you so much. -Andrew

	2006.02.08  09.06 and... worthless so, i feel like i'm stuck in a rut, and that i'll never be able to get out of this daily grind BS thats happening to me. my job is considered "good" but i dont feel like i'm getting anything out of it except headaches and stress. also, i just dont feel like making anything anymore... but i do at the same time... its a weird feeling. Mood: grumpy Music: cake - Palm of your hand

	2006.02.03  09.13 its my birthday Yay! its my birthday! also, check out www.rogersroadstand.com, and www.rogersroastand.com/test/index.asp

	2006.01.23  09.08 trying to run with shoes tied together well, work has been going well i suppose. it feels like it will go nowhere. this job seems to be the same old, same old. i mean the things i do from day to day are different, but not really. It seems that i will forever be stuck on the phone battling people who dont know much about what it is their doing on the computer. trying to figure out why somebody broke something and now how do i get it back. i guess the thrill of this job is starting to ware off. I just want to be able to make art again. i need to figure out a way that i can sell the stuff, and make a profit. i dont know, maybe if i actually had some creative direction with this job i'd be happier. i dont feel like i am different from anybody else who had this job except for my personality. seems like anybody who is trained once they get here could do it. i just dont like being on the phone battling everbody any time i need something done. I'd like to have all the data right here. i want to be in control of the servers. it just seems like i should have all the control, but i have very little. anyhow my glass is getting better. i have some new ideas about some things, so we shall see how they go. i dont know what else to rant about, i dont seem in the mood anymore. i wish i could do my comic again. i just dont have time for much of anything. Mood: Eh? Music: jungle

	2005.11.14  10.29 weekend of the storm This weekend i traveld the 1000+ mi round trip to MA then CT, then back home. Good thing for my iPod and its ability to hold audio books. i burnt out the entire battery just on the way up to MA. the normal 10 jont out of the city here usually takes me 10 min. but for some reason even when i left work really early and climed in my car and got out on the highway well before rush hour it still took me 1 hour and 15 min to get to the forementioned point. it really sucked. but what didnt suck was this: I got to hang out with J-dog and Andrew... Alison Van Damage, and the Chonster (i like making up names on the fly). then after that night of merryment i drove down to CT to find my family there for my bro's 21st birthday. it was a good time, but i drank too much and so did steve and there was some pretty big black areas of that night in my memory. What i learned on this trip. College although 4 years long was a blast, but seemed very short. Going back somehow made me feel older, but did not cause dispare. I realized that what really matters is the people who i became friends with. Umass is a nice place to meet up because we had most of our memories there. Andrew is graduating this semester, and jason the next. so after that there will be no reason for me to go back. i will know no one there and i'll just have my memories. It was a wonderful place and i'm sad that the era has ended. I also realized that i just miss new england in general. its the way the place feels. like i got off the NJ turnpike to get some gas, and some food, and just standing in the parking lot i could feel that somehow i was in NJ. its some sort of feeling that i dont get down here. its funny but i have no emotional connection with this place right now, its sorta like i could just take it or leave it. maybe this will change in time. Andrew showed me this movie that i had not seen called "falling down" it was acutlly a pretty sweet movie, and i liked it a lot. Mood: tired Music: Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz

	2005.10.06  09.11 The average lifestyle for me So i'm rounding on a monther here in my new place, and frankly it aint that bad. I'm going to be doing some visiting soon of people... the next 2 months are stacked with about 3 visits i think. Sucks for the driving... but it'll be good to see people. Making friends here has been a little rough, what with me working 40/week and with nobody my own age. Coffee machine here is sweet, it takes these packets of coffee and makes them into wonderful hot beverages, it also does a plethera of Tea and choco combinations. I feel like i dont do enough... i get home and usually start on dinner, then sit down and watch TV till i go to sleep. Last night i actually did some stuff, i went to the gym. Played poker with some glass people online. made a sweet pasta dish with the woman, had a few beers, went to bed. Tonight we're going out for happy hour with lexie's co-workers. i finally have cash in my pocket which is nice. anyhow. people should come and visit. its a nice place, and we have more than enough room to put some people up for a while... plus we have a heated pool!!!! One more thing... we've had like 4 cloudy days here with no rain... this place sucks. like there's been a weeks worth of rain forcasted, but i havent seen enough rain to even get the dust off my car. home this weekend for tasks and friends. Mood: working Music: Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz

	2005.08.12  21.31 mid augest.... last summer break ever. Maybe its depression, or lack of anybody around, or maybe its the fact that i found other friends from afar have written that have inspired me to write some sort of update with my life. 1) for all of those not in the know, i graduated with a BFA in computer animation. 2) i spent a month in Europe wondering around and going to 2 weddings. (pictures of this adventure can be recieved upon request.) 3) went to siggraph (more info can be found at www.siggraph.org) and realized that i still need work on my personal self in order to deal with that section of my life 4) i am quite possibly moving down to D.C. to get a management job for a company that does government websites. i do not believe that i will be working for the government per say... but i will be in charge of their websites. 5) went back to amherst the other day and it depressed me a lot. being someplace that ment so much to me for 4 years and suddenly not being able to fit in there hurt for some reason a lot. i feel like most probably do in my place that i have no real direction... and before for so many years i was basically expected, if not told, what i was going to do and how. i also feel that i have very little money and that this somehow is keeping me from feeling happier than i should. while at siggraph my laptop screen broke and i have found that it will cost me some 300$ to fix it. i do not currently have this sort of capital to blow on my computer obssesion. and it is a large amount of money to spend. so instead i will wait till i have a job and purchase a new laptop at a reasonible price. for a laptop i dont need anything fancy, just something that runs windows, and i can do photoshop on and check my email. i really have no use for writting papers on it anymore... but the ability to play simple games on it would also be a plus. also i feel bad that when i go out i cannot treat people to things, such as going out to a bar, and buying people drinks like i was once able to. Anyhow, apparently i have an interview on wednesday for said job above. if this works out then i will be moving to D.C. with the woman who has internship possibilities with several notible organizations. for her i am more than willing to put my career, if you can even call it that, in animation to the side while she gets what is important and nescisary out of the way. speaking of the misses i believe that i will be going with her on her Aunts yatch for some sailing for a week. I am excited for spending time with her, and her relatives, and for sailing... but i hold reservations about the other people involved. i am not sure yet if our life views will line up. my dad is the other sorce of my lack of self worth. constantly he tells me that i have no idea or concept of whats going on, and really i think he doesnt believe for a moment that i will be able to live for even a moment without his carefull supervision. i think chonny said it best with, "eveyone of us has a problem with our parents, and thats why we're all looking to get away" or something along those lines. I just dont know where i'm getting away to. Mood: depressed

	2005.05.23  01.19 the end.... so its the end... today i graduated, and packed up most of my apartment. i no longer belong to the student body of anything. 16 freaking years, and most of my known life have been devoted to this day. and now i feel as i can imagine most others in my place do.... i feel lost, not sure where to go or what to do, i mean i could do anything i freaking want... and what i want right now most of all is to be a freshman again, and to be able to do this stuff all over... and over and over... to bring us full circle... tonight i'm drinking aftershock... the first alcohol i ever had bought for me in school. the first one i ever drank was bacardi lemone... (just for refference). one of the first night i had on campus freshman year i was walking out from southwest, and i went to go up some steps and at the top of these steps was some drunk Sr.... he scared the shit out of me. he wouldnt let me past him. then in his drunken stooper he asked me if i was a freshman. i told him yes... then he told me that if i didnt do exactly what he told me i was going to be screwed... this is what he told me, "these next 4 years of your life, you're going to meet a lot of people, some really good, and others bad, some of them will fuck you over... you dont want to be around these people... to get along here you have to do two things... study, and party hard... but you have to study before you can party... do you understand me?" i told him yes... "good! now go get yourself some beer and pussy" today i walked up those same stairs and whished that i could just grab a freshman and yell at him, "remember these next 4 years of your life!!! they're going to be the best fucking thing to ever happen to you!" you dont realize shit like that till its gone. sometimes i hated this place so much i wished i could leave, but today i realized that i loved every single god damn minuet of it. Mood: crushed

	2005.05.20  02.31 dear umass, i will miss you greatly when i'm gone. tonight i hung out with some great friends that i've made here. matt, anudie, chonny, zac, amy, jason, etc... watched train spotting... i havent watched that since frosh year here... i dont really know what to say but i've been feeling like i'm going to miss this place most in my entire life. and it all feels like its slipping away too fast. nite, Andrew Mood: drunk Music: Postal service - dont wake me

	2005.05.01  22.36 time.... its too expensive hello, you have reached transition andrew... he is experienceing the want to not grow up... its a funny thing that happens about every 2 years where he has panic attacks. this time he's already 22....... I dont want to leave school. Umass has become such a part of me its going to suck wicked back when i have to leave. I love this place here, and the friends i've made, and now its time once again to say goodbye to all of that and move to a much more boring lifestyle. no more will i be able to go and get drunk on any day of the week, just because i have the alcohol. video games till 3am just wont be an option because i'll be too tired from work to play anything. it just really sucks, and thats basically it. not going to see anybody really again... not even my home friends... they're all moving out someplace. i feel like i'm one of the only kids who's going to be home for a while, and then after that i'm going to be living god knows where... it sucks... and well thats whats going to happen, cant stop it i guess. hope everybody is staying sane..... -Andrew out Mood: crushed Music: BassDrive iTunes

	2004.12.23  14.05 already working on the Sr. Thesis well, i've been home for a few days, and have managed to get sick. right now its raining outside, and i'm inside being sick and working on an animatic for my Sr. project. i hope it turns out well, so i can start modeling the stuff needed. I'll be posting it on www.eatpoo.com for review, and maybe on www.cgtalk.com the semester is finally done, and i got a responce from my art history teacher about my paper saying i should have included other things, but the paper was "fine as is, but could have been stronger if you included the points we mentioned in class". well i guess i'll get a "fine" grade for it... i hope. i also think i'm going to be working on some stuff for this fire safety thing for Umass... they promise to pay me some stuff, or give me credit... i think i might just take the credit. we'll all see how this pans out. magnus spent the last week with jason and i in our apartment... it was really good to see him again. yesterday i was at lexie's... i was with her when we took her dad's car out for a spin, and gave her pointers on how to drive stick... i say pointers because she already knew the basics... so we just went over some stuff, and she's driving really well. I'm happy she's driving stick, because she loves to drive, and its only better when you have full control over the car you're in. other news... i'm going to be posting stuff up on www.glasspipes.org ... so look for me there... anyhow, if i dont say anything else... everybody have a good x-mas. -andrew out Mood: sick Music: Trance [] Control - Atomic Dance Explosion

	2004.12.02  19.43 been busy... lots of crap has gone down... and i'm alive... -end transmition Music: Theme from Dallas

	2004.10.11  20.50 class in 8 hours 10 min I am Andrew's Waisted 21 years of life: not able to meet peoples ideals, and understand simples concepts. i apparently do not think like the adult i am suppost to be, nor care to look toward my future. i upset people constently, and seem to do a great job at harming people whom i care about. I am Andrew's waisted 21 years of life, and i'm not sure what i think, or who i am, and i'm still exporling that. to be confined to some existence that is foriegn to me without understanding is both scary, and punishing. I am Andrew's want to be normal..... normal seems good, and everybody is normal untill you get to know them.... I am Andrew's lack of ideals... and brains.... i have none... there for i am not. I am Andrew's waisted 5 minutes..... Mood: blank

	2004.09.24  11.31 not exactly like in the plan So. yesterday didnt go so well in the glass shop... i played with the dicro... but i attempted to make the bubblers... 3 times.. and only one came out, and in my opinnion it sucks hard nuts.... but as i keep telling myself, if its not hard, i'm not learning... the dicro came out waaaaay better then i thought, it was pretty F-ing sweet.... so all in all, 2 spoons, 3 pendants, 1 bubbler, 1 kick ass slide. The guy i'm working with says that if i can tune up my slides a little more (which is totally do ible) he'll get them sold for me.... i'm fuzzing out this morning.. .dont know why.... Last night at some point it became a good idea to get insanly stupid... so we did... but before that Andrew and i were outside just chillin... and then all of a sudden the lights started flickering in all the apartments... then the sky started turning blue... and there was this really messed up humming/buzzing noise... and then all the lights went out for a secound and then came back on... it was so messed up... apparently a transformer blew someplace... but its still uncertin to me. so anyway, after that we proceeded to get stupid.... and andrew heard sirens and booked it from the appartment... because he wanted nothing to do with them (they were going to where ever the explosion was)... a can of corn got named Elwardo... and had a mustash drawn on it... .. i'll post a picture laterish.... so yeah... tonight people should be coming over... i got work at 2... so it'll be good. Mood: okay Music: Flaming Lips - Yoshime battles the giant pink robot

	2004.09.22  20.07 Dear Live Journal.... Dear live journal.... yesterday, Chonny made fun of me for having you... it made me sad, and i cried later on... i have no idea why he'd be so cruel!? DAhahah... anyhow havent posted in a while, so i thought i'd blog. glass seems to be doing well, tomorrow i make lots of production piece bullshit just so i have some nice stuff to sell in the upcoming weeks, I've made a checklist of what i want to do. 2 Prodo bublers 6 Prodo spoons - Atleast 6 4 pendants Play with the new Dicro i got. it doesnt sound like much, but it will be. I'll have to powerhouse through it. Also i have to start doing the reading for the classes i'm in, and figure out some way to show that i've done an ass load of work all summer so that i can get credit for it. its gonna be a fun next week or so, not really so much work, just a lot of stress. Also, job seems to be working out alright. I have to find some headshops that will take my stuff.... because i need the cash... oh boy do i need the cash. The house in NY sold... or will be selling, and then i'll have enough money to pay off college, and not worry about being dirt ass poor.... so thats it, its all good, now i go to read/ slack off/ make food. -Andrew out Mood: sneezing Music: The vandals - Fucked up Girl

	2004.09.11  13.23 AHHHHHHHHHH!H!H!H!HJ!H!H!H!H! okay, so party that was suppost to happen last night sorta flopped... no big deal but then there was this fire on the other side of my building at about 3am, that really pissed me off.... all sorts of shit happend. I'm pretty pissed right now... and i'm tired... i had to crash in andrew's room and sleep on his floor... other things are bothering the hell out of me, and i will deal with these things shortly... and hopefully they will be resolved. Because if they are not, i'm not sure what i will do. I'm at bretts right now... i grabbed my laptop this morning. I'm pretty pissed about this whole ordeal. I'm even so tired i'm spacing out right now... i got like 5 hours of sleep or something... not making me very happy... all i wanted was my bed last night, and i didnt get it... so i'm sad. More thoughts to come later maybe. Andrew out for now Mood: pissed off Music: Xenosaga menu music

	2004.09.09  23.56 you know i'm a nerd when.... on adult swim they just had a splash screen that was a post on the adult swim message board it read like this, "dear adult swim, how do you type with boxing gloves on?" whats funny is thats a typical question asked to strong bad... of homestarrunner fame... yeah... i'm by myself in my apartment... and i laugh... I LAUGHED OUT LOUD!!!! hahahahahahah anyhow... andrew should be here soon, then drinking. tomorrow i start my job... and hopefully it will be good. see you all later. -andrew, also, magnus... get ahold of us you bastard! Mood: nerdy

	2004.09.06  11.02 raving = good so yesterday i went raving with jason... new club in Springfield = excellent. it was at club rain... and it kicked ass. living in the apartment looks like it will be awsome. although it will take a bit more cleaning to finish

	2004.09.04  20.35 apartmen the apartment is almost clean... and it is good...

	2004.08.25  10.37 leaving for vacation tomorrow ish tomorrow is my last day, and today i'm just sorta doing nothing much at all. I've realized that unless i get a job at school i'll only have a little over 1k$ to work with, and thats not always that good... so I need Job! In other news my new car drive soooooooo nice. and doesnt leak oil, or make funny sounds, or a load of other things that bothered me. I am sad though, because it was my car that i grew to love. Also, there's something about a new car that you feel like you have to be very gentle with it, or its gonna break. I'm not sure why, but i get this feeling from my car. so yeah. its all good on the farm for now... lexie and i depart friday afternoon for myrtle beach. And thats going to be pretty nice... so tonight, and possibly tomorrow night i pack for school. I probably wont post until i get to my apt... so catch you all later -Andrew Mood: excited, streesed, hyper

	2004.08.16  17.29 from glamer to damper so its like 530 right now... i'm sitting at my 2nd job for the day. To stay on payroll for my security job i need to work one shift every 4 months. so here i am working this shift, and because i'm such a nice guy i'll be working next monday too. i really need the cash.... but that wont stop me from doing what i love to do best... complaining!!! I feel like i've just been demoted. I started the day off at 7am when i woke up... got showered, dressed, and moved my way on over to my cushy job at merck. I spent the morning drinking coffee while editing a photo for Mrs. Murray. then i finshed some stuff for my boss. went to lunch and had sushi, then came back and fixed a database, tried to figure out the coding on another website, and did some 3d work. this was all cool.... until 4.30pm rolled around. at 430 i left my cushy job where everybody respects me to come over to the 2nd building at merck were i'm now currently working for security. Over here i have no respect. People look at me like i'm the lowest thing next to the cleaning crew (no offence to them, they do a hell of a job) I get sneered at, and looked down upon like i insulted their mother, and i havent even done anything yet. Its rough over here... and i'll be here tll 11pm tonight. so that makes it 15 hours today. so lets add that up so i know how much i'm making today shall we.... $10.00x8 = 80.... 9.75x7=63.37... so thats 80+63.37=143.37 that wouldnt be so bad, but hey kids we didnt take taxes out for today yet! i have the privalege of only getting 18% taken out for taxes so thats .82x143.37 = 117.56... holy crap! thats not even close to worth the torture i will endure tonight. not to mention that i have to get up at 7am tomorrow morning. awsome dudes!!! anyhow. lexie is on a 1 week cruse with her aunt and uncle, her friend TZ and some other people. its on her aunts yatch, and they're making their way up to capecod. after that on the 27th i'm leaving for vacation till the 1st, and then on the 2nd or 3rd i'm going to be moving into my apartment, so its not really all that bad. Just next week worth of work and i'm done done done!!!! I cant get ahold of anybody in my department to see if i can get my internship to count for a studio class... nobody will get back to me when i've emailed and left phone messages. it really sucks. well its quiet here now... and the bordom will soon begin... wish me luck, and maybe leave a comment or so. -andrew Mood: restless

	2004.08.03  13.21 coffee Hello, My name is Andrew Moch, and i'm a caffine adict. its true, i love the stuff... its so wonderful. i had this huge cup of coffee this morning, and now i feel like a real human... not one of those fake ones you see in the clothing stores. anyhow... i feel depressed because of lack of money... also, i'm going to have to work double shifts in order to keep myself afloat once i reach college... again, this jury thing has me all upset. i hope i can go to warped tour and see bad religion... Feeling pretty down right now... for some reason. Gonna go back to work... -andrew Mood: okay Music: Danger zone